The mantle of greatness on my shoulders is getting heavy. It sounds horrible but I totally get why so many of us fall to either affairs, alcohol, or divorce.
Its just SO unrelenting. Its a nightmare. I have no energy to do anything after a 60 hour work week, cooking, cleaning, walking youngest to bed until 11 pm and then waking up at 5. One day off a week. I’m just so fking over it 🤢
Theres a reason dads make hobbies out of their yard, grilling and DIY.I have to do this shit anyway, it can either be what stops me from doing what I want or I can find the happiness and satisfaction in it.
My relaxation time might be ten minutes having a coffee in the back yard with the garden and lawn looking immaculate but it would have been 2 hours work to get it to “done” but 3 to get it to “perfect” because ultimately what was I gonna do with that hour? Watch some Youtube videos I only half give a fuck about or play a video game I’m mediocre at. Once you figure out you can also run a smoker while you do those chores at the end of the day everyone gets ribs.