funny comment for me to find, this literally just happened to me. had the terrible realization recently that i’v…kind of been the setup/butt to jokes my whole life, from people taking advantage of my “naivity” i guess. which is weird because… I had always sort of looked down on autistic people myself. they just seemed so…predictable (apparently I am high-fucntioning autistic, or whatever it’s called).

realizing that I myself have basically been forest gump to all these motherfuckers…very jarring realization. Had been living till now with the assumption of ignorance before malice, that most people are just…dumb, not evil. now i realize the evil people might be way more common than i thought, really fucking with my head…

find myself reexaming all my lifes interactions, how many people this whole time that i thought were being nice werent. how can i mask effectively anymore if i can’t trust my own memories let alone my ability to read other people?

wait, i think this whole experience just finally tought/reinforced… full empathy for me? jesus. this feeling fucking sucks, i feel so much pain and misery for humankind as a whole, i don’t like it