I would give anything to move abroad, but im into little to no things it takes to actually do so. And when I read about it, it seems a bit reasonable, but I lose all interest and motivation right there. Doubt myself and the usual.

I hate being american so much to where I want to do. I don’t feel like writing much cause I feel pretty tired right now, but still Its become some sort of dysphoria for me. I feel inferior and I even hope to die in my sleep. I just wish that I were born European.

I do learn languages and I’m well aware of the issues over there.

I wonder to god why I was born here, but I know god doesn’t really work like that or see things that way. So I probably pray.

I feel inferior literally

I don’t relate to the history or culture (as if there is any) at all.

And some other stuff.

And I apologize if this seems very excessive. Its just really how I feel.

  • Swaus01@piefed.socialEnglish
    10·
    3 days ago

    Hey have you looked into working holidays? We have the equivalent for your country where we can go and do farm labour or Alaskan fishing in a specific season, it means you know ahead of time why you’re going to that country. I think the same thing exists for places like England, Spain, and other European countries.

    Myself I have never been motivated enough to even go on holiday unless someone organised it for me.

    But also… You don’t need an excuse to get on a plane and go. You just need to make sure it isn’t wiping out your bank account.

    • Mac@mander.xyzEnglish
      9·
      3 days ago

      Did you know there are services that do all the planning for you and you just pay and show up?
      My parents did one once. The one they did was as part of a group and i think the point of that one specifically was that it was all a surprise.