I would give anything to move abroad, but im into little to no things it takes to actually do so. And when I read about it, it seems a bit reasonable, but I lose all interest and motivation right there. Doubt myself and the usual.

I hate being american so much to where I want to do. I don’t feel like writing much cause I feel pretty tired right now, but still Its become some sort of dysphoria for me. I feel inferior and I even hope to die in my sleep. I just wish that I were born European.

I do learn languages and I’m well aware of the issues over there.

I wonder to god why I was born here, but I know god doesn’t really work like that or see things that way. So I probably pray.

I feel inferior literally

I don’t relate to the history or culture (as if there is any) at all.

And some other stuff.

And I apologize if this seems very excessive. Its just really how I feel.

  • erebion@news.erebion.euEnglish
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    3 days ago

    US government sucks, but that does not mean you suck. You’re probably fine. I mean, you know that country is run by idiots, I’d worry more if you were fine with that… Anyway…

    If you’re taking meds, consider asking a doctor whether the dosage is right, incorrect dosages can lead to feeling depressed. Don’t experiment, see a doctor, it’s all just brain chemistry and can probably be sorted out. :)