I would give anything to move abroad, but im into little to no things it takes to actually do so. And when I read about it, it seems a bit reasonable, but I lose all interest and motivation right there. Doubt myself and the usual.

I hate being american so much to where I want to do. I don’t feel like writing much cause I feel pretty tired right now, but still Its become some sort of dysphoria for me. I feel inferior and I even hope to die in my sleep. I just wish that I were born European.

I do learn languages and I’m well aware of the issues over there.

I wonder to god why I was born here, but I know god doesn’t really work like that or see things that way. So I probably pray.

I feel inferior literally

I don’t relate to the history or culture (as if there is any) at all.

And some other stuff.

And I apologize if this seems very excessive. Its just really how I feel.

  • memeflicks@lemmy.worldOPEnglish
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    2 days ago

    Germany IS one of the places I do want to live in. Anything is better than US. I only have a few countries that I want. I wiped Japan off ages ago

    • vimmiewimmie@slrpnk.netEnglish
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      1 day ago

      I kinda wrote off Germany recently due to political shifts occurring there.

      But, if it’s somewhere you feel you can feel comfortable going, there are two options which may still be relevant. Maybe you already know about these, so apologies for taking your time if so, or maybe it helps someone else.

      There is a language learning visa which allows you to stay for 12 months or so to learn German at an approved language school. There is a cost to this of course, and it’s in no way cheap. Pre-pandemic it was up to about 10k USD. This gets placed into a “blocked” account which proves you can support yourself for the time you’re supposed to be there. After this visa is completed, at least previously, you would need to leave the EU for 3 months before coming back (presumably to Germany) to apply for a “job searcher’s visa”.

      Someone else may be able to correct or update some of that information.

      Additionally, at the time, Germany provided an exception for IT Specialists, seeming to exempt those positions from the same long and difficult process of an employer ‘proving’ they couldn’t find an EU citizen for the position. But, one still needs to find an employer willing or interested in hiring them.

      Someone else can also correct any of that if they find any outdated or incorrect details.

      I want you to feel healthy about yourself. I want you to find a home.