I would give anything to move abroad, but im into little to no things it takes to actually do so. And when I read about it, it seems a bit reasonable, but I lose all interest and motivation right there. Doubt myself and the usual.
I hate being american so much to where I want to do. I don’t feel like writing much cause I feel pretty tired right now, but still Its become some sort of dysphoria for me. I feel inferior and I even hope to die in my sleep. I just wish that I were born European.
I do learn languages and I’m well aware of the issues over there.
I wonder to god why I was born here, but I know god doesn’t really work like that or see things that way. So I probably pray.
I feel inferior literally
I don’t relate to the history or culture (as if there is any) at all.
And some other stuff.
And I apologize if this seems very excessive. Its just really how I feel.
Thank you for your message, it helps me to know I’m not alone too. I’m sorry that you’re having a rough time, SAD is the pits. It hit me hard my 1st few winters in Europe.
I trust you’re taking your vitamin D and getting as much light as you can. I’ve got a new puppy, so no choice about going outside any more, no matter the weather 🥶 (I’ll pm you tomorrow, I’m too lazy to upload a photo now.)
Tbh that’s a big reason I don’t think I could move abroad - I HATE cold weather, and all of Europe seems like they have longer and colder winters than the US… at least here in Virginia.
I am indeed taking my vitamin D supplements, although I could be getting more sunlight. I tend to hibernate in the winter bc, again, I HATE cold weather lol. Congrats on your new puppy!! They can definitely force us out of our comfort zones in the best way.
Hope you’ve adjusted to your new life in Europe, friend! My wife and I have been planning a big trip there in the next year or two. Any must-visit suggestions on places to see? We were eyeing a Mediterranean or Nordic cruise that stops in a few different countries, that seems like it’d be really cool.