I’m going to be 35 and nothing changes my life has been a boring slow downward spiral. Sometimes I welcome death to take me but unless it’s a heart attack I don’t see that happening anytime soon. And I don’t feel like ending myself.

Still sexless, loveless with literary no friends and with a temp job that I dislike. I just drift in this world, I guess I could be worse, living under a bridge, but I still live with my mother and uncle, sleeping in a minuscule room shared with my uncle (he’s another “loser” like me in his late 40s non married living with his sister, my mom). I’m sure y’all heard this before, life is unfair, and it’s true, and I’m sure some other people out there are doing worse than me and are better “fighters” in life. But I’m not them, I’ll never be them, it’s not in me being that type of person.

Btw I’m not saying this just to get a response from you and I don’t need a “happy birthday” reply… If anything that would piss me off more due being insincere, you are not my family and you don’t care about me in the slightest (and rightfully so). But I just needed to say this to ease my pain.

Now maybe you can understand why I welcome the reaper, maybe you can tell me if you’re in a similar situation.

  • Rokin@lemm.eeEnglish
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    14 hours ago

    That sucks man, and I can relate with a lot of that. I got no real advice for you except that it’s your life and yours to live.

    Having said that, I got a sense that your biggest problem is your attidute to the world around you. Putting sex first, calling your uncle and yourself “losers”, and generally expecting strangers to not care about you in the slightest are all signs of an unhealthy and antisocial personality.

    I think love is something that finds you, friends are everywhere if look for them, and while finding a job you like is almost impossible, there is definitely a lot of stuff that you enjoy doing.

    But what do I know, I’m your age, sharing similar, if not same problems to which I don’t know the answers to. But I don’t share your attitude.

    You still got a home, a family, a job, phone and internet, working plumbing, food on your table, your health and a society that cares for you, even if you don’t see it. You literally live better than billions today and 99% of people before you. You are not unhappy because of your life, but because of your perspective. Change it.

    Also happy birthday dude.