going to preface this with, don’t worry about my immediate health or anything. i am not having a psychotic episode of anything like that, i am 100% sober…and…that’s honestly the scariest part for me.
there is a message that finally got through to me, woke me up (wait, motherfucker…is that where “woke” comes from???), something I’v been aware of for a long time now i think, but it got suppressed down for…10 goddamn years… for whatever reason, until now.
now that I’m aware of it, I see it damn near everywhere, almost every majorly acclaimed movie, song, book, poem, fucking everything…
and it’s not like this is some short-term problem either, it’s not going away when trump dies, it’s not even going away if trump dies and the establishment regains control (i have my doubts they can pull this off).
it’s the same goddamn cycle over and over (with slight variations), boom followed by completely deliberate bust, one privacy-overreach followed by another, the same playbook used over and over. and occasionally either end is some random organic act-of-god, which just works to obfuscate the intentional acts.
it’s so large and all encompassing you can’t even be sure which parts are apart of it and which are just…people still asleep just going about their lives.
and now, because this world seems to be ran by a bunch of fucking psychopaths, I’m even more paranoid sober than when I was having a actual mental breakdown
because how the fuck do I trust anyone now?
how do i seperate those that know from those that don’t?
psychopathic assholes from regular assholes?
friend from foe?
hell, how the hell do Ieven confirm that this is real, I know that everyone in my own immediate family is stuck in these little arithmetic bubbles too so i can’t bring it up with them, if i tried they would probably be worried I’m going crazy.
and because of past-me’s mistakes over the years I have no irl friends whatsoever to talk with either, so i guess all I have left is to send this out onto the internet and hope for the best?
Here’s a take you are unlikely to encounter among establishment people:
Normally, people think only in the “other humans” category, when they think of “trust”.
That is like the 2D error that some people make, when fighting in 3D ( submarines, space-ships, etc: it is an actual trope )
Instead of thinking in 2D, think in 3D:
or 4D…
The difference between a disintegrating-corpse & a growing-organism isn’t the neutrons, the protons, or the electrons in it: they’re identical between the 2 bodies.
So, something is distorting the behavior of the electromagnetic-force, to make the chemical evolutions be consistently different, between the 2 bodies … & that difference can be called Spirit.
( xor you can call it the mixture of entanglement & probability-wave, if you like: the label is irrelevant, its reality must be acknowledged, by empiricists: the difference is measurable between the 2 bodies, & that measurable, consistent-difference MUST have a cause )
So, now add-in “down” & “up” dimensions…
Do you trust your pet megalodon ( or whatever kind of pet you have )?
Probably, right?
They aren’t viewing you as prey from the dimensions-of-human-evil, are they?
narcissism / machiavellianism / sociopathy-psychopathy / nihilism / sadism / systemic-dishonesty / displacement-of-objectivity / displacement-of-considered-reasoning
are all dimensions of human-evil. There may well be more, but those ones I’m now certain-of.
The psychology-profession only allows 3 ( The Dark Triad ), for the most part.
So, your pet is trustworthy because they’re your friend, & they’re simple, right?
There is an interesting truth in the book “Willpower” by Beaumeister…
Beaumeister identifies that the evidence demonstrates that people who are being crushed ( by addiction ) have to surrender-to-higher-power to wipe-out their enemy-of-their-life.
But Beaumeister doesn’t accept the evidence is true, because he does not accept that as true.
IOW, it’s ideological, for him.
Scientism rejects that, so those in Scientism reject that.
Scientism isn’t Science, however: as Feynman stated “if the experiment contradicts the theory, that proves the theory is wrong”.
Surrendering-to-higher-power WORKS, proveably.
So, is there anything which prevents greater-than-human spirit ( wisdom, intelligence, magnitude, spirituality ) from existing?
I don’t see anything that could do it…
ONCE one accepts that spirits are, THEN accepting that spirits can be diverse … makes sense, right?
So, why not rely-on universal LivingSpirit, itself?
I’m NOT talking about some religious entity.
I’m NOT talking about some ethnically or politically motivated force-of-nature.
I’m talking about a simple, all-pervading spirit which helps ones who surrender-to, & rely-on, it, its simple way.
Now here’s the thing:
Imagine a competition between narcissistic-machiavellian-sociopaths, vs universal-healing-Livingspirit…
Who would win?
Remember the war adage: “Whomever controls the SKY, commands the WAR.”?
All the problems I had trusting LivingSpirit, through the decades, seem to have been caused by the Abrahamic-religions’ imprinting of me with their assumptions & prejudices ( Mom was Catholic, & she got custody, thankfully )
Once I let go of the cultural-prejudices ( like G-D somehow being an insecure male bully, who was intolerant of my-validity ), then it became easier, & the more I rely on LivingSpirit, the easier everything gets…
That’s a simple experiment: it takes little effort, but some spirituality, & the patience to entrust a many-months or few-years process to show its true-nature…
What is the difference in intent between human-evil & LivingSpirit?
human-evil wants power-over-others, concentration-of-all-wealth-&-privilege, others-being-only-puppets, exclusive-validity, etc…
LivingSpirit wants the living ( all of 'em ) to experience healing, tranquility, spiritual-grace, vitality, happiness, delight, learning, understanding, etc…
What is the difference in method between human-evil & LivingSpirit?
human-evil works opportunistically to undermine, to sabotage, to butcher, to shatter, to murder, LivingValidity, LivingWorth, LivingPotential, LivingOpportunity, LivingJustice, LivingTruth, etc…
( the variants VitalPotential might make more sense to you: I’m using Living- because it fits best for my mind … but you alter this so it fits your perceptions, see? : )
LivingSpirit simply offers, universally, & ones who learn how LivingSpirit works, & earn working-with LivingSpirit, gain more & more healing & release-from-crushing-suffering.
What about “conspiracy”? If they’re competing-against-each-other, or are opponents, they must conspire against each-other, right?
Well, not quite…
human-evil does conspire, but much of that is simply unconscious-conspiracy/convention! Prejudice is a perfect example of that.
The convention of prejudice does the conspiring, so therefore legalism can “judge” that prejudice didn’t conspire…
LivingSpirit? well, it seems all-pervading, so it feels what all lives truly-need, & simply flows in ways that work toward healing/uprighting all lives…
I experienced the sentience-state Bodhichitta, once, some years ago…
that let me experience something more similar-to LivingSpirit’s sentience, for a second or 2…
LivingSpirit would walk right into a demon’s face, being total-compassion for the deranged-life that was making harm in all possible ways, … out of concern for that-life…
( & the demon would be powerless to harm the Bodhichitta-one because of how total/pure that kind-of-mind is: that demon would HATE being subject to such seeing-through-everything compassion )
It’s really hard to map that kind of sentience onto human-experience, because it’s sooo total, & pure.
Anyways, all of this is simply to say that I’ve given-up trusting ( being close to/with ) anybody, human or animal, because of the prejudice I’ve been, AND been-subjected-to, & that’s fine with me.
I’ve got relationship with LivingSpirit, to the degree that I can muster, & I trust LivingSpirit.
& that is wonderfully healing.
& seeing how creatures of all kinds & sizes, including insects, are just trying to live their lives & make their lives better according to their feelings, same as humans, … one ends-up having compassion for lives more-universally, which itself is healing…
Letting-go of the involvement-torque, the political-motivation, is healing…
Letting-go of humankind, embracing pure-spirit-itself, can be sooo freeing & healing.
Wishing you your healing, & just identifying that yes, continuums/souls do evolve, even when it looks from human timescale like that never happens, they do.
All the Abrahamic-religion stuff about “forever” … doesn’t match the evidence: ALL of G-D’s children ( souls ) “return home”.
Without exception.
Some are more “wayward” than others, but none get discarded, as the Abrahamic-religions proclaimed nearly-all did.
That is what destroyed the Abrahamic-religions for me: I discovered that some deep-trance memories were from my soul’s other kinds of lives, & that my soul didn’t care about individual-deaths… that took years to adapt-to…
& every time my fundamental-assumptions got smashed by evidence, I had to adapt/evolve again…
& now … I just roll-with-it, evolving.
Universe’s rules are universal, not ethnic/political/local/machiavellianist.
It does its thing, & souls … get caught in lives … & eventually get the hang of their-own kind’s growing-up.
Trust higher-evolution, though: trust your own Soul’s higher-truth, & that can be freeing/liberating.
There’s no rule that says “only other-humans” can be whom/what you trust, is there?
Trust the universal origin-of-all-healing, whatever your label/name for it is, & it’ll lift your “wings” into your sky, more, in concordance with your skill & your meaning-it.
Salut, Namaste, & Kaizen,
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