I am 27F. I’ve been wondering if I am on the autistic spectrum for a while now as I feel alien, disconnected and weird during social interactions. I’ve never been taken seriously because people see me as socially gifted. So I took an online test, not as a way to diagnose myself, but to show proof to my actual therapist there might be something to explore. I scored 154 on 200.
Weirdly, she didn’t dismiss me like other professionals did. She just said it’s a great question to ask but as part of her training she did not study this so she can’t evaluate me for it, I’ll have to ask my psychiatrist.
Now I am terrified of getting a diagnosis, the little voice inside of my head tells me “what if I am creating a whole story in my head?”
Thank you for the ressources I’ll take the test.
I suck at eye contact too, I asked my parents some questions about my childhood and it seems I already showed signs of autism, which isn’t too shocking for me as I remember isolating myself from other kids and staying with adults instead… I never had many friends and as I’ve told my therapist I learned body language through books.
I already stim and it calms me down, I always thought it was nothing much since my stimming is just moving my leg up and down, I always thought it was because of my anxiety.
Well, thank you for the ressources you’re really nice.