You do you the best way you feel you can. You aren’t alone; everyone has their own coping methods, all unique to themselves. Whatever runs through your head isn’t anyone’s business but your own, unless you choose to make it otherwise. Thank goodness for that. You are doing great!
Well, I figured out within a day or two that face down ass up was not the optimal showering experience. It’s a steep learning curve, I guess…
I don’t know how it works for most folks, but as soon as my butt is fully immersed water starts shooting out of my ears just like those peeing angel statues, so yes, there’s necessary seepage. That’s why I just take showers.
Much easier to pick up than a piano, for sure. Pianos are very heavy.
While we are all on the same ride to hell, your ride to hell is your’s, and your’s alone. Do what you feel like doing and try not to worry overly much.
3M makes a set of bluetooth hearing protection ear muffs/headphones called 3M Pro Protect. They have speakers and a microphone that allows you make phone calls while wearing them, and also hear your surroundings, but they cut out loud sounds, like running a big machine, very loud yawns, or coughing. There is a button that switches the volume of ambient sounds between four volume levels and completely off. They offer a noise reduction of something like 26 decibels, so they are pretty quiet when you shut the mic off. I am sound sensitive, and these have been a real godsend. They may very well dampen your reaction to triggers. Finding the path forward is the Way. You’re doing great!!!