Lol I truly don’t know why my account appears as a bot account, maybe because I deleted the app then redownloaded it? Idk, but that aside what advice would you give me? I feel like I need this to help give me the strength to get through the hell of life. I feel so broken, so why not try and find something to (at least mostly) help fill the void?

If it wasn’t for my belief in the people I’ve lost, that they’re In a better place, then I would have never have decided to try and better my life. My dogs for example, who passed a few years ago, are why I’m trying to turn my life around. I don’t think it NEEDS to be an organized religion, but I ultimately just don’t know. I know that my loved ones are somewhere were they are safe, happy, and at peace, and that they’re encouraging me not to give up. I was a militant atheist for a long time because… I was angry at the world for feeling like a mistake, like a burden.

I’d like something, that tells me on a spiritual level, that I’m not, and that despite these hardships, I’ll be okay. I don’t know who to talk to about all this.

The story of my permaban is more… Embarrassing, in regards to WHY more than anything. If you’d like to chat more feel free to dm me.

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