Aaaaaaaa! I love them! Thank you! <:

Anything with feathered raptors?

I just woke up, but do you have any dinosaur stickers?

It’s honestly still appreciated.

I meant that I’m too numb to feel anything. As much as I need them, affirmations don’t do anything for me anymore except make me feel even more numb and fake. I appreciate what you’re trying to do though.

The setting is fun. The author is garbage. Also don’t think too hard about the characters or the way different magical races are portrayed.

I’m too numb :c

Thanks tho.

I mean, iirc Canada already accepts some LGBT refugees from other parts of the world. So unless you’re saying that everyone in the US is queer, it seems like the obvious thing to do would be to apply the same standards to US LGBT refugees as LGBT refugees from other parts of the world.

That’s awesome. Now, when are you gonna remove the law barring US LGBT refugees?

Are we really that far gone yet? No, but we’re headed there.

Honestly, felt.

I’m 30. I started hrt in December of last year. I waited way too long and now I feel like I’ll never be fully fem. Hell, I remember clearly when I was younger, being told by my grandparents how handsome and manly I was becoming. They told me they noticed my torso and shoulders broadening, and that girls would like that. I clearly remember the disgust and discomfort that I experienced from that despite happening over 10yrs ago.

I’m very socially stunted from a life lived in seclusion as a result of my dysphoria. Romantic relationships are a new concept to me. My first experience being intimate with someone was with another trans woman who turned out to be a predator. I was too easy for her to manipulate as a result of my naivete, and she eventually raped me.

I’m lonely. I feel broken. I feel like trash that should be shoved into a pile and left to rot. The emotions I began feeling as a result of hrt have been suppressed again. I am numb and dead inside. I know I have feelings, I can see it in my behavior. I know there is someone I love, and I know she loves me in return. I get excited when I see her. When I’m with her I want to stay glued to her. I miss her when she’s gone. Yet, these are observations based on my behavior. In reality, I do not actually feel anything. As much as I want to, I am too numb to actually commit and put a name on our relationship. Besides, I’m American, she’s Chilean. If I went to visit her then it’d be a one-way trip out of the country. God forbid she comes here.

My only comfort is friends telling me that I already pass really well, and that I look like I’m in my early 20s as opposed to beginning my 30s. I’m not sure I believe them because I still get misgendered by strangers, but I appreciate them trying.

However, as fucked up as my personal journey has been, I believe that, as small and inconsequential as I may be, my journey plays a tiny part in helping the trans children of the future. My small voice, combined with others, will help keep us from obscurity and help keep future generations from the misery I have experienced. True progress doesn’t happen overnight. It is a pebble helping guide the water to erode the mountainside.

To tell you the truth, I’ve considered ending it; but I keep going because of the friends and family in my life. I keep going because of the woman I love. I keep going for future generations. So I continue to take my hormones, swallow my misery and try to make the best of it. My only hope is that, if an afterlife exists, I will be able to live out eternity in my true form, in happiness.

Damn, girl. You look good!

T~T

Tbh, I’m starting to look into it myself, though I still have +6mo before insurance will cover it. However, considering how long I’ve heard the waiting period can be, maybe now is the best time to start thinking about it and looking for surgeons.

Congrats! I hope someday I’ll be able to do the same. The idea of sex kinda sucks when it feels like your brain is looking for parts you don’t have.

Uhh… Someone was literally raped on set, in front of an audience, and no one got arrested? Are you fucking serious?

The thing that confuses me is that I literally have a furry avatar, lol.

furry avatar

Yeah, that sounds about right. Peak “no thoughts, head empty, living in the moment, no regerts” energy. Furries are the ones who are typically silly enough to do stuff like this.

I bet they looked at the puck, imagined what would happen to their 'sona if they took a bite out of it and said, “yes, that is a funny image, I will do that”.

Edit: idk why I’m being downvoted, the fact that furries are the ones I consistently hear about doing this kinda stuff is a big part of the reason why I love the furry community.

Only if I get to be one of the failed trials c:

Y’all forget there’s an entire community around viewing one’s self as an animal-person.

It could make things slightly more difficult straight out of college, but beyond that? Not really. It took me 8yrs to get through college. The fact that you’re almost done means you’re doing great!

Edit: if anything I should have stopped and listened to the voice in my head telling me that the path I was on wasn’t the one I should have been going down. The voice didn’t start showing up until about 6yrs in to a 4 year degree, and listening to it would have meant it probably would have taken another 3~4yrs to finish, but I would have also actually had a career; one that I would have enjoyed, no less.

Communication.

Communication, communication, communication.

A running theme I’m noticing is a lack of communication between you and your friends about what’s going on. You’re asking us to tell you if it’s normal or not, yet it sounds as though you haven’t reached out to them to say something like, “hey man, what’s up? Everything good? Sorry I haven’t been talking as much, how’s life?”

I’m gonna take a wild guess and say that you’re cis male because this is a thing common with cis men: most of y’all don’t know how to communicate with one another. It’s totally possible that the ones who still do things together are actively communicating in the background.

So… What’s stopping you from hitting them up on Facebook, discord, telegram, signal, Whatsapp, etc?

What’s keeping you from trying to help carry the torch?

Relationships are two-way streets, after all. It’s exhausting when you’re always the one to initiate with someone. Like, trust me, that’s me. I’m the one who’s always having to initiate. Even as a very outgoing gal, it’s fucking exhausting.

The people who don’t regularly respond to my messages or only respond in short statements are the ones I let myself drift away from. They rapidly drain my energy and I lose interest in talking to them very quickly. Why would you hang around a brick wall?

The ones where I always have to initiate but are otherwise communicative are the ones that stay friends. Sure, I’m the one who has to remind them of my existence, but they have lives, they may have anxieties, they will typically have something interesting to say whenever I talk to them.

The ones who initiate with me are the ones who I end up being closest to. Those are the ones where friendship (or otherwise) feels effortless and will actually restore energy when I talk to them. They’re the ones who end up at the top of my friend’s list.

Communicate with your friends. See what’s going on in their heads. If you can’t do that, then of course you’re gonna drift away. Like, sorry to be blunt, but you may come off as a boring person. You gotta remind them that you aren’t by talking about hobbies and whatnot.

That’s a 100% reasonable take. You’re just jealous that you couldn’t come up with a more creative statement.