Sasha [They/Them]

I didn’t have an experience like this growing up, my family didn’t realise we were all autistic until I pointed it out earlier this year, and even then they weren’t really accepting of it lol.

Imo support has to include listening to what you want, otherwise it’s just controlling. Regardless of whatever support you have had, you’ve gained skills through your own efforts, no one can just give them to you. You deserve to feel good about that.

Handling family can suck, especially when they treat you like you’ve described, but things get easier when you have space away from them and live your own life. Them pushing you has helped you grow, I had to learn to push myself, which is a skill in its own right but it seems like you’re already doing it. Independence is hard to achieve and I think you’re doing a great job so far, keep it up.

We’re against hierarchy, not organising.

I was going to say this, it’s how I found my local anarcho-federation

I meant they’re specifically not going for that though. The experiment isn’t about improving the environment itself, it’s about improving the LLM. Otherwise they’d have spent the paper evaluating the effects of different environments and not different LLMs.

I’m pretty sure they touch on those points in the paper, they knew they were overloading it and were looking at how it handled that in particular. My understanding is that they’re testing failure modes to try and probe the inner workings to some degree; they discuss the impact of filling up the context in the abstract, mention it’s designed to stress test and are particularly interested in memory limits, so I’m pretty sure they’ve deliberately chosen to not cater to an LLMs ideal conditions. It’s not really a real world use case of LLMs running a business (even if that’s the framing given initially), it’s not just a test to demonstrate capabilities, it’s an experiment meant to break them in a simulated environment. The last line of the abstract kind highlights this, they’re hoping to find flaws to improve the models generally.

Either way, I just meant to point out that they can absolutely just output junk as a failure mode.

LLMs can degrade by giving “wrong” answers, but not because of network congestion ofc.

That paper is fucking hilarious, but the tl;dr is that when asked to manage a vending machine business for an extended period of time, they eventually go completely insane. Some have an existential crisis, some call the whole thing a conspiracy and call the FBI, etc. it’s amazing how trash they are.

I’m glad Kirk is gone, I’ll never not be happy about that, I think it’s objectively good. But I think it’s still important to recognise that it’s very shitty that he did end up a miserable little cunt who was better off dead.

Mostly though, I’m just worried about how celebrating death makes it seem like a virtue we’d want or accept in a new society. Revolution at a necessary cost, don’t get me wrong, but we shouldn’t celebrate the cost itself. I think it’s totally okay to celebrate the end result, “the problem of Charlie Kirk is now solved” or something lol, but the method was both objectively awful and necessary.

Murder is a tool as all violence is, but we should it treat as what it is: a horrible one we’re forced to use to attain liberation and thus ultimately a form of violence inflicted upon us. After a revolution, I think it’s best left behind in this shitty fucking world we all hate.

Regardless, get fucked Kirk, good riddance and rest in piss you slimey little cunt.

It does the same thing as laser, it kills the follicle using a burst of heat. Even laser is in some sense temporary and you’ll have regrowth, but in either case that process takes months and it’s very gradual, it’s why laser clinics say you need to perform maintenance.

I stopped doing IPL for nearly year and I can count the numbers of chest hairs that came back on my hands. I had a similar experience when COVID lockdowns interrupted my facial laser sessions for a couple of months, except that grew back faster. I think a large part of it is related to growth phases though, as in you’ve gotta kill the follicle at the right time for it to stay dead or something, I’m no expert.

At home IPL absolutely works, it’s definitely better for dark hair on light skin, I’ve had pretty good results. Still struggling with facial hair, but so did professional laser. I’ve gotten rid of almost all my body hair with my little IPL machine. It’s slower, but you can also do it more frequently so it isn’t too bad. It’s also an option for maintenance once you’ve done laser rather than going back every 6 months or whatever they recommend. (Also IPL doesn’t hurt)

At home electrolysis is apparently a scam according to a friend of mine :/

What you’re experiencing is relatively common in my experience. Transitioning sucks, even with support. It’s slow, expensive, often disappointing and it takes an absurd amount of both bravery and energy to live genuinely. You’re doing great.

I’ve always struggled with transition timelines, especially before I started transitioning. Thinking about it now, I’m actually surprised that I don’t find they trigger dysphoria any more. Certainly still jealousy, but it makes me happy to see people enjoying life. I’m not really happy with the physical changes I’ve made so far, it’s been slow and subtle and I can’t really work out how to stop boy moding, but I like myself now even if I still want to much more.

It’s too bad that transition timelines often focus on meeting stereotypical beauty standards, because imo transition is about so much more than that. I get to talk to a lot of people at different stages, and the truly inspiring thing is how much happier people become. It’s definitely a fight, but it’s one you can win even if it’s in ways you might not expect. I’m sorry it’s so damn hard and I wish it was possible to ease the burden.

Celebrate your wins as they come, you’re working hard as hell and deserve to feel good about every step forward.

Trans nonby software dev who dated a furry artist, my disdain for AI knows no limits.

I use Nobara, btw. (Is Arch good I’ve never looked into it)

The speech is a chance to say everything you want to say, as long as it comes from the heart and celebrates their marriage, you’ll do fine.

IMHO it’s totally fine to joke about yourself, as long as you aren’t generalising there’s nothing anyone can say. Transitioning is your story, and you get to tell it how you want.

If you haven’t already done it, Pat (the Bunny) put all his stuff on archive and he’s far from the only one.

I have a playlist called “Loud Sleep” I put that on, crank the volume up enough that I can’t hear my thoughts and wait around until I’m so exhausted I either fall asleep or get sleepy enough that I take them off and pass out. I specifically use Skullcandy crushers so I crank the bass waaaaaay up and let it vibrate my skull.

It’s just a bunch of They Might Be Giants’ more aggressive/loud songs and a couple that mean something to me. It’s not really about avoiding feeling stuff, it’s all intended to make me feel more, just without as much thinking. It’s kept me alive on some really bad nights when I felt like all I could do was die.

Imposter syndrome because the people around you beat you to coming out is real and sucks so hard. It happened to me, I watched a couple of my friends go through the exact same thing after I came out and it happened in reverse to an acquaintance when I heard someone angrily complain about said acquaintance coming out after them (it was unbelievably toxic and nothing I’ve seen before or since).

One of the closest people in my life literally hit me with the “just asking for a friend” to see if they’re allowed to be non-binary without taking hormones like I do. Even with all the reassurance in the world it can take a long time. It’s so so hard, being trans often means overcoming an enormous amount of self doubt and all sorts of internalised nasty things.

You’ve done an amazing job navigating everything. I’m so proud of you and it only gets better from here, I promise.

Thank you for existing ❤️

I’ve got unclockable’s bra buds and they’re pretty good when they work but it’s been hard to find good bras and they can be a pain to keep in place. I’ve come home a few times only to realise they’d completely left the cup without me noticing.

They’re supposedly like implants and tbh they’re pretty convincing when you get them in something good, I really like them I just wish I had more than one bra for them…

Looking at it from a quantum field perspective, pretty much. If the only interactions are through gravity then the underlying field’s evolution can’t be influenced by anything else, I have no real idea what the implications of that would be because we don’t have a QFT for gravity.

Got any recommendations for a music player?

I’ve paid for symfonium and love it tbh, it works really well, has great customizability and the offlining of favourited albums is so so nice. It has an internal download cache, but it can also export files to your downloads folder the way jellyfin does at the moment. My only gripe is that it’s not FOSS.

Yo Mr Inbetween is awesome, my boyfriend got me to watch it with him way back when we started dating

I once spent an entire evening removing nazi homophobic posters from my uni campus, wheat paste fucking sucks to get off even with water. I had a spray bottle with me and for most of them I had to just scratch off the worst parts and leave them up.