Very interesting take on the whole subject. Sorry to hear about your depression, but nice to that you made it through.

I started programming because I wanted to have software that didn’t exist and so I had to make it myself. The need (or strong desire) to have a piece of software is still one of the biggest reasons for me to keep working on stuff.

But as others said, I do like the challange. Also when I find a neat solution to a problem, it feels like bringing order to chaos, which is nice.