My lazy hack for debugging any program is running the main executable from the command line. That usually streams the logs into the terminal and helps me debug from there.

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If you leave your phone at home for one day, take a walk, get some coffee, meet a friend - but don’t use your phone, schedule in advance and tell them you’ll be phone-less, etc. You’ll find yourself feeling way less overwhelmed by a lot of these things. Phones keep us constantly aware of the changes around us. They make it seem like the world is whirring around much faster than it is. Basically, I guess, I’m suggesting “touch grass”. But I do think phones, in particular, are the worst for making us crash out like this.

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Need I say more?

Print what? I skimmed the article and I’m confused. Can you print an 3D Eiffel tower on a piece of paper? Or is it more like you’re printing things with a small emboss/raised edge? I didn’t even realize that was something people wanted to do. Maybe for custom tiling?

Yeah I think too many vegans try to pretend it’s chicken or steak. It’s just not. It is its own thing.

I used to eat tofu to be vegan. I didn’t like it much but I put up with it. 1-2 years later and I’ve acquired a taste for it. Now I can eat it cold, fried, baked, etc. It does need some sort of sauce to be genuinely good to me, but it requires a lot less effort than it used to.

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True speaker here

Native English speaker here. I agree with Winker.

Yeah and it has been constantly on my mind since my original post.

TBF if you want, you can have a bastion server which is solely whitelisted by IP to stream your content from your local server. It’s obviously a pivot point for hackers, but it’s the level of effort that 99% of hackers would ignore unless they really wanted to target you. And if you’re that high value of a target, you probably shouldn’t be opening any ports on your network, which brings us back to your original solution.

I, too, don’t expose things to the public because I cannot afford the more safe/obfuscated solutions. But I do think there are reasonable measures that can be taken to expose your content to a wider audience if you wanted.

That is a haunting last sentence. But you’re probably right.

Thanks for the comment. I appreciate the honesty. Like I said in other comments, I have a lot of things that are holding me back, but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t explore it entirely. I just don’t think I can go ‘all in’ but maybe that’s ok. Definitely internalized transphobia and other body image issues make it much harder.

For now I’m considering growing my hair out again. Maybe it’ll look better this time around. Whilst high school would have been brutal for me, I still wish I could have put the brakes on puberty. It’s impossible to go back and it’s hard to imagine I’d ever have had the courage. But it also just seems like the only way to halt the manly characteristics I’ve gained.

I’d feel awful. But - to my credit - I have explored these concepts with her. We are quite open with each other. When I came out as bi to her, I point blank asked her if she’d consider dating/sleeping with a woman and she was pretty adamant that there was no circumstance in which she would. Because I feel only mild dysphoria, I don’t feel like I’m hiding from her entirely. Maybe you’re right though. I might broach the subject to her more casually. I should at least be honest about how I feel - even if I don’t necessarily intend on acting on my feelings. I guess I’ve always felt like talking to her about it would be me “coming out”, but I suppose I can frame it more honestly: as a mild dysphoria I occasionally feel, but don’t need to upend our lives to explore. I’m speaking off the cuff here so I hope I’m making sense.

I did my best to read the gender dysphoria bible during some of my work meetings and - for better or worse - I do fulfill a lot of the cliches illustrated in it. Even as a teen, I occasionally wore makeup, painted my nails, etc. I didn’t really feel comfortable around my peers. I’m guilty of sleeping as much as possible to kind of live in the fantasy.

All that being said, I have so much internalized transphobia (as someone else pointed out) and I’m deeply entrenched in this life as AMAB. If I could guarantee I would love myself as a trans woman, I might consider it. But I feel somewhat confident that my inability to pass and my shame make the idea transitioning overwhelmingly difficult. I can’t shake the feeling that I’m maybe fetishising the experiencing (despite reading the subsection “Consider That It’s Rarely ‘Just A Fetish.’”). It’s nice to talk about it nonetheless.