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Cake day: June 29th, 2023

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  • Yeah reading your comments in here, idk how you wouldn’t. You sound like you have deep seated self esteem issues especially pertaining to your adhd. I’d even hazard a guess and say you likely have trauma relating to it and how people have responded to it in you. You aren’t alone in this, and I’m calling it out because I’ve struggled with both of these things my entire adult life.

    So believe me when I assure you that you cannot resent yourself enough to be better. If it worked it would have worked by now. ADHD is tricky, and you have to learn to be cunning towards it. Charging at the executive dysfunction head on just results in tiring yourself out and resenting yourself further because you couldn’t do what neutotypicals can.

    You have a disability, and from the sounds of it you’ve gone a long time without getting much support for it. You’ll probably never function as well as neurotypicals would like, and some of the tasks you’ve described are ones that I struggle with too (my wife and I will ask each other to remind us to do a thing for a 20% chance either remembers). But there is hope for you as a functioning adult and even hope for you to have a happy and mutually satisfying marriage, whether or not your current marriage can be salvaged. But it begins with you pursuing treatment, help, and new strategies not because your wife deserves or needs it, but because you deserve the ability to function better.







  • Yeah I see pro car people use disabled people as a rhetorical position somewhat regularly, but there are a fair number of disabilities that make it so you can’t or shouldn’t drive. It’s one thing if that means “too bad you have to move to a medium sized city and use a reasonably good public transit network” but in North America, that’s not what it means. It means you move to one of the most expensive cities in your country (Ciudad Mexico, Vancouver, New York, Washington DC, Toronto, Seattle, anywhere in the metropolitan US northeast) or you move to a medium sized city (not its suburbs) and catch the hourly bus when it’s operating. The alternative, which i know people who do, is to bum a ride everywhere if you’re able, drive anyways if you’re able, or basically be housebound.

    Like, it really is remarkable the difference in experience between people who don’t have a car but have a metro/light rail and the people who have neither. These are policy decisions and they can be changed.



  • I’m sorry to hear you’re in your position. Failing marriages are always awful, and when it’s caused by disability it can be that much more uncomfortable.

    And I’ll say that, I relate a lot more to you in this situation. I could never marry someone who needs me to function like I don’t have adhd, which is why I married someone who’s more like us. I knew what I was getting into and so did she and the loads we share are built on the reasonable expectations we always had, like that things won’t always be as clean as we might like them to be and that dinner plans are subject to how much effort we have the capacity to put in at the time.

    Keep working on your mental health, and show yourself kindness and forgiveness. Not only do you deserve such things, they’re also the most effective tools you can get to help you improve your ability to function outside of pharmaceuticals