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Cake day: June 29th, 2023

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  • And I’d like to add, my interests are largely somewhat masculine coded. My personality doesn’t feel masculine or feminine, I’m loud, extroverted, and strong but kind. Or as we say in my family: my mother’s daughter. I did have to put in effort as a kid to not get mistreated for being a feminine, and put extra masculinity into my presentation as a teenager.

    My everyday clothing is the normal androgynous style of jeans and tshirts, though over the years I’ve gotten less baggy with it. When I want to look nice I prefer a more feminine look or a feminine take on a more masculine look (leather jacket with bold makeup for example)

    Ultimately I do think a lot of society’s gendering of everything is kinda stupid, though existing within it I find it easy to fall into it. That said, I can’t imagine a world in which I as myself would maintain a more amab style body if given a choice nor one in which with that choice barred it would not cause me significant distress to the point of hindering my ability to live.


  • I’ll admit two major things here: firstly I was what would have been described in a more medicalized time as profoundly dysphoric. This is not the majority of people now seen as trans. One of the major wins of the trans community in the early 21st century was that dysphoria shouldn’t have to be life ruiningly bad to get to have it addressed. Secondly dysphoria got worse over time and I had other signs earlier including phantom breasts and maladaptive daydreaming of being seen as a girl even in my early teens.

    Like, I would’ve probably been able to transition in 1960s America, though I definitely would have had to put more effort in and jump through a lot of hoops including lying about my sexual orientation. But had I been in the silent generation or a boomer I probably would have done it, despite the personal, social, and financial costs.

    This is all not to say liking Ranma makes someone trans, just that for people who are questioning to not take those of us with the most dramatic dysphoria as the baseline.




  • In this case it was just a decent gen ed literature paper but yeah I once literally couldn’t stop reading the Wikipedia article about the evolution of plants when I was unmedicated.

    I’m more likely to talk of hyperfocus when it’s things theoretically people would think are good to be unable to stop focusing on like school, work, or learning. This is largely because crashing on the couch doomscrolling instead of eating is something even neurotypicals do these days and because talking about all the nights I spent playing binding of Isaac or civilization with zero capacity to stop and do my damn homework or go to bed make it sound like a failing and like I’m blaming my mental illness.

    But yeah, it’s inability to regulate attention and we live in a world in which sophisticated tools for catching and maintaining attention are extremely commonplace and should be more regulated.


  • Idk I feel like if it actually worked that way we’d get pretty firm negotiations that home and work get separate metalminds at least at decent jobs. And much like how zincminds don’t make you smarter, they just make you equally smart faster, these won’t make you good at your job, just make you solely focused on the stupid thing your boss told you to do.

    Also I feel like given how hyperfocus is attention would be more like weight or senses than strength in that filling has benefits too by allowing you to task change and a sudden jolt from tunnel vision




  • Yeah also hyperfocua is thankfully often one of the earliest symptoms to be dealt with. The name “hyperfocus” sounds great, but when I tell the story of how in college I sat down to write a paper then several hours later was finished, couldn’t tell you anything about it and desperately needed food, water, and to use the restroom but was so exhausted I didn’t know how to prioritize these needs and spent several minutes deciding which to resolve first… Yeah then it sounds like a symptom of a disability rather than some magic power.

    I swear I’m sick and tired of people thinking adhd is basically being an attention feruchemist