Should be “wið”, no? 😉

I teach programmers to say “Oops” when they make a mistake, rather than apologize. It’s epidemic.

You’ve already had several good suggestions here.

I learned that when rest no longer leads to recovery, that is burnout and maybe even depression. Pay attention to this feeling and take it seriously. Good luck.

If you’re thinking about what you could be doing, you might have some unhelpful conditioning related to “being productive” and other such myths of how to live “correctly”. You might be able to think your way out of that way of being and you might need to talk to someone to do this, such as a therapist.

If you’re worried about forgetting something that you need to do later or about some deadline sneaking up on you, then writing things down and setting reminders could help. I did a lot of this and it trained me to literally forget things that I didn’t yet need to start working on without risking missing deadlines. I found it very freeing. Something like that might help you.

I hope you find some peace from something in these replies.

Everything old is new again. I hope another generation of programmers feel inspired by the idea the way we felt.

I have settled into this pattern:

1. Name expands as I understand better the structural role of a thing. Duplication in names begins to become easier to spot.
2. Removing duplication in names means introducing helpful structures, resulting in shortening names again, particularly as the intent/purpose of thing becomes clearer.

Long names stay unnecessarily long when we don’t notice the patterns that suggest the missing structures.

The more examples of this kind of thing, the better!

(And my preferred name for that is rolesByEmployee. In general, “values by key”.)

It’s much more likely that we sound like children than we sound like an LLM.

Low feels more numb than dark. More like being on pause than everything is terrible. More “I’ll try again later” and less “this is never going to get better”.

I don’t remember the transition. I can’t tell you how long it took. I was only on antidepressant medication for about 18 months.

Peace.

I use Spectacle for taking screenshots and I’ve enjoyed using it for several years. After that, I’d crop it in any image editor that has a freehand selector tool. Gimp would be the first thing I tried, but I’m sure you could find something easily enough.

Good news, relatively speaking.

I’ve been where you are. Most important: don’t let yourself start to take responsibility for managerial decisions. If they want you to stand in the corner on your head and cluck like a chicken, it’s their money. 🤷 Don’t let that change how you see yourself as a programmer.

And roll your eyes in private.

Is this a problem for you or merely annoying? I mean the difference between you being blamed for their poor results and you merely being inconvenienced by doing extra work.

You might need to train yourself to accept the situation as it is and hope for someone in authority to make things better. It’s not easy, but this might be a good chance for you to build that skill. 🤷

Can you talk openly with your manager about this situation? Would it be helpful to you to propose to your manager that you help that group? Maybe your manager would appreciate your attempt at leadership.

Good luck.

You don’t have to commit to any one thing in this life. I’m doing very little at age 51 that I was doing at age 27.

I also wasn’t doing what I truly wanted to do most in life until my 40s.

https://www.goodreads.com/quotes/133403-we-should-do-away-with-the-absolutely-specious-notion-that

If you have social anxiety, then why are you blaming women for being difficult to talk to or flirt with?

Women didn’t get me until I grew into my 20s. For some of us, it takes longer, and it feels terrible in the meantime. Peace.

This is the kind of paradox that leads us (I mean humans more generally) to look for some fundamental assumption we’re making about time that will turn out to be wrong. I assume that’s true although I wonder whether it’s literally impossible for us to even imagine how time “truly” works, let alone measure it.

I was a kak user for several years and am giving hx an honest try this year. So far, I’m quite happy.

(and yes, I’ve been both an emacs and vim user.)

hx

I meditate. Very occasionally, I still am not ready to sleep, but it still helps me to do that.

I listen to a podcast, if nothing else works.

Mostly, I don’t worry about not sleeping. It took me years to feel OK with not sleeping, but here I am.

Peace.

Dumb question: do you have a key on your keyboard that disables the microphone? I don’t have my laptop in front of me, but I know there’s a key that disables the trackpad and another that disables the camera. I realized that I’d accidentally hit those by going through something similar to this.

Good luck.

Kat.

Les Oulhamr fuyaient dans la nuit épouvantable. Fous de souffrance et de fatigue, tout leur semblait vain devant la calamité suprême: le Feu était mort.