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Cake day: October 3rd, 2023

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  • the only pause it gives me is when i notice nonsensical details blending into each other, the only emotion it moves in me is then disgust and foolishness as i just spent time on slop that was not an expression of something, but an intentionless imitation of one. and it sure as hell doesn’t make me self reflect as it manages to be both shallow and hollow

    it’s not AI “art” itself that sparked a conversation, no singular piece stands out as something people talk about (a piece that is more than just a more seamless version of the pervious attempts, something memorable even after it stops being the best at imitation). The talk is not about AI “art” itself it’s about the idea of it. Nobody points to a single thing AI made and claims that is proof it’s not art, because it’s not individual pieces that “make us think” – it’s the concept of an intentionless thing being fed human art and then making misshapen copies of it at the whims of people who can’t be bothered to engage with art at all.

    sure it does make you think, but only if you - knowingly or not - treat the entire emergence of AI slop as a kind of performance art itself, any individual piece of slop is not the topic here



  • never mind a canvas, if the guy cared in the slightest about the “art” AI made he’d at least print it on poster paper

    this experiment shows how even the “artists” just do not care about those images, and why would they? why would any of us care?

    this shows exactly the core of the issue - every piece of art made by a human, no matter how good or bad (whatever that means), is a reflection of the artist. Sometimes they pour their entire soul into a piece, sometimes just a small part of them, but it’s always a reflection of them. So the artist will care about what they’ve made because it’s their own self, in a way. And others will care about it too, because we crave to get to know others, understand them, see the world how they see it - and art allows us to glimpse just that.

    AI slop elicits none of those emotions, there is no artist to care about, no reflection of the self, no worldview to glimpse, no way of caring about it, nothing – even if it was you who wrote the prompt, you just can’t bring yourself to give a shit









  • in a way i think yes. in the dark ages at least any insane cults and ideas couldn’t spread far. if your village or castle happened to have dark ages version of ben shapiro then his words aren’t going to go far (unless they infected the local ruler as well, and even then it’d still be contained within your area, or your country at worst). If you were on the receiving end of insanity you could always just kind of– pack up and move to another village, walk 30km away and you’re like a new man! Worst case scenario find your way to a port, fuck off to another country - passports or border control did not exist, passage was often granted for free to those able bodied that joined the crew for the voyage.

    obviously i’m romanticising here a bit, modern medicine and technology makes day to day life easier. but it also makes other things much harder. our privacy is going extinct at an alarming rate, freedom of movement across borders belongs to distant memories of our great grandparents, (unless you’re french) your protests will be ignored and/or vilified, and if you dare care about other humans and speak up about it you can be labelled as a terrorist in some places

    i do truly hope that those years of unrest aren’t here to stay…



  • it took me 3 different doctors to finally get a diagnosis. first two were neurotypical, the last one also had adhd himself. adhd is often misunderstood, and the metrics for diagnosing it completely ignore individuals that have figured out their own coping mechanisms or are more intelligent than most.

    for example a big part of the diagnosis is a binary - did you have trouble at school? if you answer “well no i didn’t, but i also never studied or did homework, everything was just kind of easy. the subjects i disliked went very poorly though. i still passed but my range of grades went from highest to lowest yet still passing. i had some trouble with higher education when i was expected to study on my own though, i got my degree but seemed to struggle much more than my peers” all the non-neurodivergent doctor (or god forbid, a test) will hear will be “well no”

    obviously i don’t know you personally, nor do i know what test you took or what doctor you went to. but if you still suspect you have adhd despite being told “nah” by one doctor, then i’d encourage you to seek a second opinion, ideally with a doctor who has adhd themself, so the diagnosis is a simple vibe check instead of mind numbing tests that only account for “well duh” kind of adhd


  • hi friend, it’s not laziness - it’s executive dysfunction. And it’s quite difficult, thought not impossible, to work against.

    Step one is realising that executive dysfunction isn’t a choice - laziness is a choice, and it’s supposed to feel good - if you feel guilty the entire time you’re being “lazy” then that’s not being lazy.

    Step two is creating systems not habits to work against it. Us adhd folks either have a very hard time creating habits, or are incapable of creating them at all.

    What do i mean when i say systems, not habits? i mean reflections & procedures that help you realise you’re falling down an executive dysfunction hole, and then help you get out of it. The best metric i’ve found to understand how deep into that hole you are is figuing out how much guilt surrounds you - messy home, messy documents, unfinished projects, undone work etc. all those generate guilt, and the more guilty you feel the more overwhelemed you get.

    Then you engage the systems that help you get out of it. Find your sources of energy that’ll get you through cleaning and organising. For me exercise works best, even if it’s just some stretching or light cardio (jumping jacks are the only thing that wakes me up when i’m tired for example lol). Address things one by one - first clean up your home, a passive source of guilt coming from your surroundings is going to be constantly dragging you down.

    Once that’s out the way get to work on your projects. Realise that you can’t start at working 7h non-stop, but you can slowly work up your stamina for consecutive work. Push yourself to do a bit more every time, but not too hard or you’ll start getting the burn out meter going up.

    What helps a lot is doing things for another person or having a body-double there to keep yourself feeling accountable. Even as little as being in a discord call with another person working can get your in a mindset to do things.

    And speaking of mindsets to do things - another tactic is to create task specific environments and or outfits that you associate with doing something. Going to a library to study, putting on an outfit to clean etc. You can do that digitally as well - perhaps have a seperate system account for programming and working, that’ll help you keep the distractions just enough out of reach that on good days you’ll easily choose continuing to work instead of video games or watching youtube.

    Things i wrote above work for me, they might not work for you though. You’ll need to discover and figure out what makes you tick. It might seem hard, and it can be, but it’s very much worth it