I understand the feeling of being in limbo due to uncertainty like that. I’d say if you don’t feel strongly enough to commit to large things, then don’t. For the things that you do feel strong enough about to commit to, keep smashing it into smaller and smaller pieces until they’re manageable, then start to do them. There are tools to help with this process out there. And starting towards something can help clarify if it’s something you want to put effort into. You can also take on smaller, useful pieces of a larger goal such that even if the main goal is something you decide isn’t worth it, you can still get something useful out of what you’ve completed.

I don’t really ever feel like committing to things, so I don’t plan things out like that. Sometimes things turn out well; I just kept doing my hobby I enjoyed and whoops I’ve been doing it for 20 years. Sometimes things go not so well but I try to quit things that aren’t working out early. And sometimes there’s real consequences. My life hasn’t been a straight line by any means. Nobody I know has had a life like that, though, even the planners.

… Are you a cop or something?

Long term planning is a task that requires executive function. Is it difficult for you and that’s why you dislike it or is your distaste for it a separate issue?

Aim better, please.

And downright hilarious to compromise financials and MFA.

And by extension Terranigma and Soul Blazer.

You might like Alundra. PlayStation game. Here’s a long play so you can see what it’s like: https://youtu.be/C7GXOjlshqg

Lots of gear in it, though, otherwise a fantastic recommendation.

The poly peeps are on different apps.

I don’t think it does for anybody that hasn’t read the books.

So anyway here’s Champagne Supernova.

Aside from that, the trailer looks good. I’ll miss the musicality that was in the audiobook, though.

The naked on his birthday guy and the other guy from that season that forgot to keep touching the pole are all I remember.

They should have dyed it pink.

I feel lucky that I’ve found hobbies where I enjoy the practicing instead of the results. Everything I’ve tried with a goal is mind has eventually been dropped, but the ones that I enjoy regardless of results have stuck around. Eventually I even got good at some.

Hyper or meh keys would be a good use.

A cruel angelfish’s thesis

Lol

I bounced off it several times until I watched an 8 hour video essay on it (not in one sitting, mind you). I finally completed the main quest on my next playthrough and really enjoyed it.

The mourning for what could have been, that’s a heavy weight. And the shame of not being enough for others expectations. I’ve been very lucky in that I found something to study with enough structure and novelty that got me through college, but it was not what I started out with. I didn’t even realize about the ADHD until the depression got bad enough to seek help in my 30s (after a year of not working and somebody helping me to make my first appointment) and the psych noticed all my coping mechanisms fit. She got me assessed and medicated. That came with its own challenges, but it made a world of difference in my relationships, my hobbies, self care, etc. That would be my biggest recommendation if you’re not already, to get on meds (also, apologies if you’re just looking to vent and not for advice). It won’t fix everything or give you back what you’ve lost, but it can make things more manageable. And if you’re like so many others that can’t afford to seek professional help, then many find some relief with nicotine and caffeine.

Christ, that is a trite oversimplification or complete misunderstanding. ADHD includes worse outcomes in employment (lower wages, difficulty keeping jobs), relationships (impulsivity can lead to anything from speaking before processing to forgetting plans to seeking out more stimulating things in lieu of relationships), health (higher rates of car accidents, higher use of recreational drugs, difficulty with self care), and a bunch of other things. It doesn’t “develop” over time from looking at your phone. Please please please do some actual reading of things by experts in the field on it before saying this sort of thing again.

The last D is for disorder. If you have ADHD, it’s not cute and relatable, it’s making your life worse to the point of needing to be addressed. Everybody having “a little ADHD” is a way of trivializing the level of actual problems that are required for it to be called a disorder.