I have ADHD, and my therapist has confirmed it, just like the results of ADHD tests. He isn’t bad, he greatly helps me with my depression. However, he doesn’t provide an official diagnosis nor prescribe pills.
He says it’s my trait and that I should learn to live with it. Like, take more breaks, find a motivation. Easy to say, hard to do. I can’t keep up with the strategies he suggests, and I feel like I’m not trying hard enough.
The world doesn’t wait for me. This trait is ruining my work and my routine, and it’s stealing my money and my time. I can’t start tasks, I can’t concentrate, and I can’t do anything boring or unpleasant.
For example, I can stare at a wall in the middle of a work task, with my hand over the keyboard, and lose myself in thoughts about my hobby. And I don’t give a damn at this moment about all my reminders, the absence of irritants, and so on.
Of course, sometimes I can force myself “just to do it”, but it costs a ton of energy (btw, because of my depression, I have a tiny amount of energy). It often requires a ton of luck, too.
Is this normal? Am I just complaining?
I’ll second this. I white knuckled my way through life for years. It sucked. Now I kind of get to choose when I don’t need the help. When I want to do some chaotic shit.
If I’m working or working on an important personal project I’m medicated. But I want to explore 50 things and try new riffs on guitar or just go wherever the day takes me? I can do a couple of days unmedicated. And it’s fun! And I have no responsibilities I’m dodging so who cares if the laundry sits on my chair for two extra days? Then it’s back to being focused and calming that trainwreck in my brain.
Like today. I had nothing going on. So I’m out here just freely flowing through life and not giving a shit. Monday I’ll need to get back on it.