Source: Me.
I’m trying to hang on Cantonese and Mandarin as much as possible, but it’s so fucking hard because Cantonese is so triggering of my traumatic memories, and Mandarin just reminds of the CCP. Like… in my mind its so hard to separate langage from parents or a regime.
Have you thought about leaving? I know it’s easier said than done, but where I’m from in Canada there’s a lot of Cantonese speakers. A lot of them fled HK before and after the handover.
I’m not saying you need to immigrate, but there must be pockets in the States where there are more Cantonese speakers who aren’t your family. Or maybe even like a discord server?