Okay, so It’s my first post. I don’t know if this count as NSFW but just in case I’ll put a spoiler.
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So… today i felt something that I had never felt before a big dysphoria crisis when my wife started to be a bit intimate with me.
I won’t go into details, but basically I never though that my bottom part would cause me this feeling. I ended up crying because of what I felt… I can’t really put words on it…
I never felt that before when I was still an egg. (Well, some things were less enjoyable but never this).
I don’t really know what to think about it, why did my body react this way. Even though I never though about any surgery about it.
Even yesterday, I thought like I don’t understand why some people would have dysphoria about their genitals. I though that we need to deconstruct gender and we can be feminine or masculine with any organs and this hits me like a slap I’m the face.
I feel foolish.
I didn’t really know what I was feeling and why I was having issues like not being able to maintain erections even when I was aroused by my partner. It finally hit me what it was and it continued to get more disruptive until I finally decided to get bottom surgery. But for me that part was physical as well as social dysphoria. Some only experience one or the other or other variations.