As the title says, I had my first panic attack. It happened while showering and I started to spiraling about [the problems I have with my parents])https://feddit.org/post/23629681). Suddely I realised, that I have no ide what happened in the last 5 minutes, didnt feel anything and standing in the shower breathing like a steam locomotive with increasing frequency. So I sat down waited about 5 minutes trying to calm myself and reducing my breathing frequency. After that it was definitely better. Finished showering and felt good after that (I also wasnt feeling bad before that at all).

I did meet some friends a few hours later. Guess I should maybe start seeking professional health after that.