Well, as the title says, I Am curious what Dysphoria feels like for you? When/how did you realise, that certain feelings are in reality Dysphoria?
Edit: Damn, some of you really have lived through a lot. I Am very happy that I can’t really relate to quite some of the comments here, because that sounds horrible.
for me I couldn’t even recognize my face. I hated the shaving so much -both the touching my face and the feeling of stubble on my skin as it grew back I just opted to just let it all grow for years before realizing how much I just wanted it gone. Some portion of that was personal neglect, also just being busy working for years and burying my disphoria under that and supporting my partner. I told myself it wasn’t a good time for it and waited way longer than I should have but at least I didn’t have to get sectioned.
I tested first by shaving for the first time in years and looking at my face not covered in hair made me start crying from joy right then and there. So I went and spent many, many hours getting electrolysis done because the pain from that is pretty much insignificant compared to how waking up to hairs growing out of my face made me feel.
i feel that so much! <3
Re shaving: when I started needing to shave regularly and kept my own razor, from time to time I’d get the urge to shave off all my body hair as well (ie from the neck down). I had no idea why I wanted to do that, but every time when I saw my shaved body it felt really good. Well, you know what happens the first few times you experience gender euphoria… so I assumed it was a filthy fetish and ought to be suppressed.
Just before my egg cracked I was seeing female forms everywhere: in lines in the wallpaper, in blades of grass, patterns in gravel etc. I thought that was a fetish too. Oh well.