Already out on the road working. Probably going to be a long day.

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  • ObtuseDoorFrame@lemm.eeEnglish
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    4 hours ago

    I have a lifetime of unprocessed trauma leaking into my every day life. I was put on antidepressants when I was 12 and weened myself off of them when I was 31. Taking the lid off Pandora’s box has overall improved my life but every once in a while something will trigger repressed emotions and I’ll have a period of a few days to a few weeks where I can’t stop crying. It’s pure, unfiltered grief. And it comes in waves.

    This time it was Cyberpunk 2077. I had heard that this game was emotional, so I was prepared for the effect it was always going to have on me. Or at least I thought I was prepared. A particular storyline put a large hole in the dam holding everything back. I do appreciate it when a piece of media can punch a hole in my dam, as it needs to happen, but I sure am fucked up right now.

    Crying in public and at work isn’t fun.

    • Lexam@lemmy.worldOPMEnglish
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      3 hours ago

      Ooh I can see where Cyberpunk 2077 could do that. Hopefully everyone around you is understanding.

      • ObtuseDoorFrame@lemm.eeEnglish
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        3 hours ago

        Luckily I haven’t had to explain it to anyone yet, as I am a security guard and spend the majority of my time at work alone. Security can be a great job for people on the spectrum. It’s important to note that unarmed security is the chill kind where you rarely have to actually deal with people.

        I don’t have any interest in being an armed guard. That shit sounds stressful.

  • Lucien [he/him]@mander.xyz
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    6 hours ago

    I was feeling stuffy last night so I took some NyQuil. I woke up feeling like I’d had anesthesia. But the thing is, I take ZzzQuil every night because I can’t sleep otherwise, so why is NyQuil so much more intense? I believe it’s the same dose of sleeping medicine.