I always got called out for being weird throughout my life but NOBODY ever mentioned to me they thought I was so I just got exhausted of being misunderstood and misinterpreted sometimes and tried learning the social etiquette my entire life, somethings I don’t necessarily agree but I do it anyway and try understanding others doing for the sake of fitting in and I just got quite used to it, miserable at times yes, but it’s become my life all of that and any quirkness I just assumed to be due to having more individuality than others since no one ever questioned me directly if I had anything other than just plainly calling me weird. I’ve honestly been hopeless with life more than I’d like to admit so I’m not sure how I’m going to process all of this, I figured if anyone could understand or relate to this life experience I have would be others diagnosed as well, has it been like this for everyone here and felt this same way when diagnosed (for those who were diagnosed after already becoming adults)? I’m overwhelmed and needed to talk to someone about this but I have no one other than my psychologist however I’m not comfortable discussing it with her right now about it and since Lemmy is semi-anonymous/anonymous I feel a bit more inclined to talk about it here 😞
As others have said, being diagnosed isn’t going to change your life. You will always be you. The only thing different will be that you will have a better understanding of yourself. Why certain things bother you or are stressful. And perhaps how to better deal with them. You might still have to struggle with social situations. But now you will know why. And others might too, and have understanding for it. Rather than think you mean something else by it. Which honestly can be a little life-changing in and of itself ironically.