I always got called out for being weird throughout my life but NOBODY ever mentioned to me they thought I was so I just got exhausted of being misunderstood and misinterpreted sometimes and tried learning the social etiquette my entire life, somethings I don’t necessarily agree but I do it anyway and try understanding others doing for the sake of fitting in and I just got quite used to it, miserable at times yes, but it’s become my life all of that and any quirkness I just assumed to be due to having more individuality than others since no one ever questioned me directly if I had anything other than just plainly calling me weird. I’ve honestly been hopeless with life more than I’d like to admit so I’m not sure how I’m going to process all of this, I figured if anyone could understand or relate to this life experience I have would be others diagnosed as well, has it been like this for everyone here and felt this same way when diagnosed (for those who were diagnosed after already becoming adults)? I’m overwhelmed and needed to talk to someone about this but I have no one other than my psychologist however I’m not comfortable discussing it with her right now about it and since Lemmy is semi-anonymous/anonymous I feel a bit more inclined to talk about it here 😞
Hey! When I got diagnosed, I felt quite miserable and lost. I’ve went through the pandemic very lonely and depressed. I still struggle with a lot of things. When I got diagnosed I remember I almost found it funny how little changed for me. I knew I was still the same person. I also felt strange to come to terms that a lot of the things I struggle with will never really go away.
But after a long time of reflecting/learning/forgiving I am starting to tell apart my talents and my weaknesses (which often are quite close to one another) and I feel like my life is getting a direction again. I recently made friends who accommodate me and I am working towards finding the kind of niche I can work in professionally.