And I am clearly autistic.
My whole life being annoyed at how I don’t get on with normal people and wondering why all my friends seem to be neurodivergent, being great at any subject I care about but useless in any class where I merely dislike the teacher or subject, doing overtly unusual things in public and barely noticing the stares, and thinking I was perfectly NT the whole time.
It is a deeply absurd experience.
I have this problem where I call out the absurd “normal” things people do and say to me when people do or say them and they stare back at me in utter confusion.
I just wish someone had told me “your vibe is your tribe” about thirty years ago
For 44 years I was certain I did not have a tribe, and I was just a shitty person
The self doubts haven’t gone away, just the doubters.
Yeah, that PTSD from people treating us awfully is a tough one to overcome. Especially when they deny the existence of our trauma. Thanks mom and dad.
hypersensitivity to sound making me cannot do online shopping sometimes.
I am not used to online shopping in the first place, this year I’ve only done 3 such things. Because whenever I do that, at the 3rd or 4th day when it is supposed to come, it becomes the day of waiting where I cannot do much stuff except waiting for it to come.
And vehincle sounds passing near my home will be noticable even from maybe <500 meters away from my house.
oh hahah that’s already a thing.
but here the delivery person had to take a photo with the receiver for proof, I had to pick it the exact time they arrived. At the very least I can still hide my face using the package box, because it’s an added hassle otherwise.
Huh… Yeah, that makes sense.
Yeah… 9.5/10 for me. Holy crap.
Only real difference for me is I’m hyper aware of time and get really anxious if running late. So I guess it kinda fits with the description of dealing with time “in very specific ways”, but not in the always late or up the line.
I definitely struggle with estimating tasks and can still lose track of time when I know I don’t have something to do at a specific time.
The next two videos where he goes over the differences between ADHD and AUS, followed by what it looks like when you have both, really hit home for me (I “officially” have ADHD, but I guarantee I also have AUS). Definitely check them out.
