So recently I realised, that the more I transition I Am starting to resonate with women way more than I do with men. Its literally almost every aspect. Conversations are a bit more - let me call it like that - “soft”. No/less crude jokes, less talking while someone else speaks, more friendly vibes and so on. I also would 100% lie, that I didnt like it quite a lot when women ask about where I got my nail polish (I got a huge box with nail polish in it (from a friend) and there is one really cool looking red metallic one and quite regularly when I wear it other women ask about it). I had this realisation this weekend, when I was at an event where I knew no one (the event was 4 days long) and I realised that I kinda dont like socialising with men nearly as much as I do with women. I pretty much had the fun of my life simply because some of the women there were absolutely amazing.
I’ve never been able to socialise with men if alcohol/other things weren’t involved. After I met my partner it became worse, because the girl group that formed the majority of my social life met her and dragged her along to “girls nights” without me. It hurt. The irony is that she’d much rather hang out with their boyfriends.
Now I don’t have a social life beyond a couple of the mums at my kids school, because anything more that a casual acquaintance will keep trying to hang out with my partner, who will keep blowing them off. And I have kids so I can’t just get drunk all the time.
I really want to have what you have it sounds really cosy.
While it may sound like I have a female friend circle I really don’t have something like that. I have a few women with which I interact somewhat regularly but no real friend circle.