Advice about HRT: physical changes happen very slowly. Mental effects happen much quicker. You can start it and see if it helps you feel more comfortable (happened within days for me) and stop if it isn’t good for you.
In the event that it is something you want, you will be happy that you started it earlier rather than later.

Edit: to be clear when I say “very slowly” for physical changes, I mean months. Do what you need to do if being visibly trans isn’t feasible within the next year.

I’ve been very happy with my Deathadder, been using it for almost a year now.

Love that you are able to have the small win of existing as a woman here, congrats! I am in a similar demographic to you, but with fewer children.

I came out to my wife in February last year, and it was one of the scariest things I’ve ever done. We are still together, love each other more than the day we were married, and I am seeing a doctor on Tuesday about starting HRT. Obviously I don’t know how things would go with your spouse, but I hope they would at least be sympathetic to what you’re dealing with and be open to talking more with you.

It’s okay to take things slow, you don’t need to rush anything. I wish I had started transitioning 10+ years ago, but I am so thankful for the family and life I have that allows me to do so today.

Keep asking questions, keep being open to learning new things about yourself, and don’t settle for a new box for people to put you in if it isn’t quite right for you.

If my grandma had wheels she’d be a bike

Wait, what? That’s disappointing. I use Shinigamieyes, haven’t noticed anything weird yet.

(Michael Perenti, Blackshirts and Reds: Rational Fascism and the Overthrow of Communism)

Appetizer for one, obviously.

Okay, I was a child of 12 or so at my local gym with a friend. We were talking and some old guy we didn’t know came up and asked us this. We stared at him, dumbfounded for a few moments before he said, “it has no legs.”
He walked away and I never saw him again.

Commenting to appease my anxiety, ignore me if I bother you.

Doctors generally recommend abstaining from sex for 6 weeks after giving birth.

What sudo is?

Using the backs of spoons to apply spreads like jams or peanut butter is better than using a knife.