If the effects of HRT sound magical to you, there’s a reasonable probability you could be trans.
I spent years reading trans communities on the internet, out of interest, while assuming I wasn’t trans myself. Now that I have started transitioning, my only regret is not starting sooner.
You have to do what you have to do to be safe. I understand. Take care of yourself. <3
Despite your real life circumstances, at least while you’re here, the title of trans woman is yours if you choose to accept it.