I felt this way quite a bit before starting hrt. Knowling that I’d need to be boymode for months if not years, and how that might make me feel fake or give me extra anxiety, whatever.

When it came down to it, I barely think about things like that, 7 months into it. The bodily changes are really whats dictating me changing my clothes - i have small boobs now, so I’m having to buy some sort of item (bra) to stop the nips from rubbing on shirts which now kind of hurts. My “boypants” don’t fit because my waist has risen from where it was to a more feminine position, so very soon I will just have to get more “gender neutral” fitting pants. My balls have shrunk to a degree that my old boxer briefs seem pointless, so I’m thinking about moving towards diff undergarments.

Essentially, I just feel like at this point my transition is about me, how I feel and how much I and my gf are enjoying watching the transformation happen. Its a private thing. And that’s made me a LOT more confident in terms of knowing that I’m doing the right thing.

One more thing - I was heavily into makeup and dressing fem to go out, but the second it became… I guess… “real”, it meant more to me that people didn’t oggle me and I could continue to sort of peacefully exist and drift by. Everyone is different, but honestly the knowledge that it’s nobodys fuxking business what I do has allowed me a ton of freedom and the ability to separate my personal journey from “society”. Not recommending it for everyone and I 100% support being bold and out straight away, but I am also a supporter of taking it slow and evaluating it with those who matter if only because it’s helped me a LOT over the past 7 mos, and I want to remind people that it’s an option too.