My earliest (or one of) memory is of me when. I was 6 with a steak knife pointed at my jugular crying and trying to will up the courage to do it.
Things I did not improve greatly from there. I remember very little of my childhood or really any part of my life. Bits and pieces here and there.
Guys, I don’t want to jump to conclusions, but I think I might be depressed.
Dunno where you reside and the legality but psilocybin and ketamine have been showing wonderful results in depression and are becoming more available in a medical setting. I’ve done a few K sessions at a local clinic and I won’t say it’s fixed my depression but I do find it easier to look at things glass half full, highly recommend.
Note however, that psychotropics drugs are best taken under medical instruction and are most effective in the long run if you’re also in psychotherapy.
Edit: Wtf did my app just do
Yes, that’s why I said in a clinic. Having someone to monitor you is safety first.
There’s a dozen apps for Lemmy and they all have bugs, but I’m glad there’s people working g on them all
“Did this memory actually happen a long time ago or did it happen yesterday and my brain filed it wrong”
-Me more and more recentlyOh huh… I did not actually realize this was a tendency for ADHD spectrum people. Though I’m pretty sure I’ve got a lot least one or two that are 100% real, so that’s fun too
ADHD peeps from older generations typically were not diagnosed at all, so they were just classified as lazy, and some parents tried to “fix” this laziness with some pretty heavy handed methods if you know what I mean.
I sometimes wonder if I am but this would be the opposite of my childhood experience. I was “introverted” or socially ackward they would say but I did well in classes which was usually the yard stick for laziness. getting homework done. it is interesting to see all the takes from this community.
I was one of those ADHD kids who was socially awkard but excelled in class too. I was (and still am) probably awkward because I was at best ostracized and at worst bullied by every kid in school, but it is what it is.
There’s plenty of ADHD people who excel in school actually. It can go either way. Often it depends on how much luck you have with your teachers. If they happen to have a compatible type to ADHD children, or are ND themselves, it tends to go massively better. My child went from failing school to excelling, by just a change of school and teachers.
My grades were pretty much dependent on how much homework and long term projects were worth cause I almost never did either. Test grades were usually good though
My first memories are traumatic!
Actually, a number of my childhood memories are the traumatic ones… Fuck.
Same. Those are the ones that will be with you til your dying day. I hate it when someone say forgive and forget. Forgiving is next to impossible when you can’t forget, ever.
Old joke.
Two medical students are chatting. One says that they read an article that said the better adjusted a person is the further back they can remember. An emotionally stable person should be able to recall many things from pre-school and an exceptional person could remember learning to speak.
“So what’s your earliest memory?”
“I snuck a beer of of my parent’s fridge when I was 13.”
I have a handful of token memories going back to when I was one or two. But kindergarten and school are just blank voids. It took me up to when I was about 30 to realize I did not have a happy childhood.
My elementary school had two kindergarten teachers with the same last name, my only memory of kindergarten is roll call on the first day when the teacher told me I was in the wrong room and I had to walk out with the other kids chuckling. Seems like our brains hold on to only the strongest emotional moments be they good or bad.
