I’ll go firstt:
1: Regularly thinking that girls got all the cute clothes
2: Buying female clothes (skirt and some underwear) for “cross dressing”
3: Feeling physical pain when having to put off bought female clothes to go outside
4: Imagining yourself as the women in porn (that’s why I at first though I was “just gay”)
5: Being sad when thinking about trans people and realising I couldn’t transition because I’m not trans
6: Absolutely suppressing every form of thought when thinking about “the trans topic” (in a way that sometimes I reflected myself and thought that I may be trans, but I 100% suppressed those thoughts knowing damn well, that this wasn’t that much of a good strategy. This also included the thought “acts trans, looks trans, probably is trans”, that crossed my mind after taking LSD for the first time)
7: Dissociating kinda regularly. Happened usually when reading fantasy books. Didnt realise it was dissociation until like 3 weeks ago
Probably missed some stuff but those are the most significant ones. Quite a lot of stuff are signs that appears around the last year or so.
Always playing girls or male none-humans in pretty much all forms of fiction
Hating the way guys treated girls (most often in dating)
Rejecting traditional masculinity, hated the idea that it was expected to act like that
Ungodly ammounts of trans related porn and no interested in traditional one
Very open and radical pro-choice position, even from a relarively young age
Being around guys was always scary and wrong, while being around girls made me feel safe and in the correct place
You could not bring me to undress in front of guys
Oh wow, that last one.
I got more exercise running to high school gym class so I could change before anyone else showed up than I ever got in the class period itself.
Didn’t help that I’d basically figured nyself out at 11 and immediately went into denial for years. >_<