Just wondering what moments of gender euphoria or joy you have experienced, was hoping we all might enjoy hearing some positive stories!
I’ll start: today, I went to my laser hair removal place to reschedule an appointment and nobody was at the front desk, and after waiting for a while I went to use the ladies room and ran into a woman even taller than me who immediately called me gorgeous and then proceeded to compliment my makeup, earrings, and hair. I was like a deer in the headlights, simply stunned as if I had slipped into an alternate universe where this complete stranger was actually a close friend and I had forgotten. Nobody is that nice to me, let alone a stranger.
Anyway, women can be so wonderful, and this moment made me grateful to be a woman. 😊
Phone Conversation:
Hi, can I speak to [deadname]?
you’re speaking to him…
Oh sorry! So anyway…One day I hope the answer to that question will be “Who?”. But for now I still use my given name for shit so…Boyfailing still has to be one of my favourite gender experiences!
Ha, that’s definitely a win! Voice training made a big difference for me, one time they asked to speak to my husband <deadname> 💀 I’ve enjoyed so many awkward phone calls like that, it would be more euphoric if it didn’t create so much stress, lol
I’m not sure I get much of it anymore. I think it’s more a lack of dysphoria. I still get moments of dysphoria, and moments of euphoria, but they feel like part of the background hum of life, rather than at the forefront
That makes sense! In a way that’s a kind of euphoria story of its own, that you no longer have to think about dysphoria anymore - that’s the end goal for most of us, I would guess.
I’ve been having a pretty good day today, in fact. In town so dressed up pretty fancy. I had some down time in between getting some more holes made in my ears and the main reason for my trip, so I wandered the women’s section at the department store.
Kind of a weird mix of “these stores are selling clothes I’m actually interested in, yay” excitement and “they’re going to clock me any moment and kick me out” anxiety. Anyway I bought some rather expensive earrings which I’m looking forward to wearing. Oh, and when I went to the bathroom everyone ignored me. Ah, Japan :3
Off now to try to convince a psychiatrist that I’m Trans Enough™ to issue a recommendation for GAS. Wish me luck!
Update!
So I saw the psychiatrist. I have to write three pages on “why I want to be a girl”, visit the clinic regularly to check I’m still presenting fem, and then in six months if I haven’t changed my mind I get my permission slip. Oh, and I have to visit urology so they can look in my pants. Then I get to join the hospital wait list…
Pretty dumb, but as hoops to jump through go, it could be a lot worse.
That’s too much gatekeeping for sure, but at least it seems like those are hoops you can jump through - wishing you luck with the urology visit!
Have you talked to any other trans women have been through this process, who have written the three pages for a psychiatrist, etc.? It might be helpful for anticipating curve-balls they might throw at you, esp. in case they operate under outdated care procedures like the Benjamin Rules.
Good idea!
My latest moments of euphoria:
I had led my employer’s regiment for the Portland Pride Parade, and was out front flourishing two gigantic trans flags while wearing an outfit that could have been in any Final Fantasy game. I was on a lot of news for that. Hefting those giant flags about and doing tricks with them at any trans person and reporter I could see, eventually covered my left hand with welts and made me horribly sweaty in a very expensive outfit.
Worth it. Would do again.
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that’s so neat! I’m not sure I knew you were in Portland, that’s such a great city!
Those boots are awesome
That reminds me of when I was graduating college a few months ago and it was my first time on campus since I did all my classes online. We had a rehearsal in this theater building and I didn’t know where to go so I followed this group of women I saw. Turned out they were just heading for the restroom but one of them held the door open for me and internally I was like “eeeeeee yay! They see me as a woman!” Didn’t have to go to the bathroom though so I kinda just walked in and then walked right out lol.
aw, that’s awesome 🥰
