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I can’t tell her.

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That’s really nice to hear, but I’m tired of waiting to find someone that cares for me as more than just a friend. I recognize that I likely will never find that.

If I could push a button and never existed for anyone, I’m afraid I would push it.

Cute dog! Unfortunately, I would not be able to provide the care and love a pet would deserve, due to my work schedule. It wouldn’t be fair.

ETA: I limit my drinking to maybe once per week. I could lose my job if I test positive for nicotine, let alone weed. It’s sad to say I am happy only when I’ve railed enough coke to numb everything else. I won’t go back to coke though. I think it would kill me, like honestly, it would actually cause my heart to burst.

I wait, in vain, for things to get better. Based upon all available data (in my head), things do not get better. I stopped lying to myself a while ago. If not for my son, I would have left this world years ago.

Fucking facts. I cling to those dopamine hits, but my tolerance is so high that even those moments don’t scratch the itch anymore.

I want someone to marry me again someday. I want someone to stand in front of my friends and family and profess their love and devotion.

I gave up on that dream a couple of years ago.

Holland

It was alright.

Seriously though, Redshit? It is so fucking cringe. It’s ok to type Reddit.

Just as bad as crApple. FFS, just use the proper names.

Sure did

IINA is great! I use it to watch movies on my laptop from time to time.

My mom made no such effort, and gave up on calling me Jessica a couple of years ago. I’d cry my eyes out if she had sent me what your dad sent you. I know that she loves and cares about me, but she also refuses to see me as how I truly am. It’s such an odd experience, hurtful at many times. But she also bought me a car last year, and has offered to help me bridge the gap when I was off work for 2 weeks due to an injury. In spite of her non-support, I love her dearly.

What I’m getting at is that familial relationships are nuanced. Give your dad some credit for taking the time to research what being trans is about. Of course there is more to it than just the medical side of things, but he is trying.

Your age also factors into this as well.

My stepfather made several transphobic statements while he was alive. If he was still with us, I’d bet his conservative worldview would have changed a bit. I still hold him in high regard, because I know that he loved me and just wanted what he thought was best.

TL;DR: Family relationships are hard, and it seems like your dad is trying.

Without knowing the nuances of OP’s relationship with their father, it would seem that dad is trying. That text sounds like someone who did a lot of research and is trying to show that they cared enough to read up on the trans experience. Whether that leads to acceptance is something only OP will know or at least have an idea of.

Come on now. Having therapy should not be a requirement, but it should be encouraged. When someone has the courage to come out as trans, it can be a very difficult time. Having a professional that helps people who experience gender dysphoria can be a life saver. How many trans people have to go it alone in the beginning of their journey? If they have the means, I’d recommend it. Just reading studies or participating in trans spaces, for some folks, is not enough.

Someone better than I should make a copypasta of the typical .ml response. Most of their shit reads as that way anyway.

Thank you! I hope so too.

Just thinking the same thing. I wonder if this gets reversed or not.

Chúc mừng Năm Mới! ☺️☺️